Rainbow

[krystalkatzfics]

Title: Rainbow
Author: krystalkatz
Rating: PG
Length: Chaptered
Genre: Au

Pairings:, Matsumoto Jun/Ninomiya Kazunari, Sakurai Sho/Aiba Masaki

Disclaimer: I only own the plot

The room was silent for a few minutes and then Kazu let out a shaky sarcastic laugh his eyes going back the window as his cheeks blushed again

“What the hell was that?” he asked a slight tremble in his voice, Jun really wasn’t sure where he had pulled that from or what the hell was happening to him. His whole mind was full of this guy and for some reason he really did want to see him smiling, maybe it was just so he could stop seeing the image of him laid there against bags of rubbish covered in his own blood. “You sound worse than the shrink at least he’s paid to sound hippie dippie”

“Kazu… I guess I did sound a little corny, ne? But I told you that I wasn’t going to leave you…” Jun mumbled “But in answer to your earlier question yes it does make me feel better by coming to see you…”

“Why? So you can feel better about yourself?” Kazu snapped again and Jun rolled his eyes

“No its so I can stop seeing you covered in blood” he snapped quickly and Kazu went quiet again and with a sigh Jun lifted up his bag putting it on his lap “Oh I brought you something, I figured that you had to be bored…”

“…. Oh I don’t know… There’s therapy and you know being force fed through drips is really fun…” Kazu spoke his voice was filled with dry sarcasm again but Jun could tell he was looking apologetic

“Maybe if you actually ate you wouldn’t have to have the drips…” Jun pointed out and watched as Kazu’s face scrunched up in a disgusted line that he knew would be directed at all food.

“I don’t like… The hospital food… Have you ever tried it? It’s disgusting…” The thin guy mumbled and Jun nodded remembering that the doctor had told several times by doctors not to push him regarding food or the reasons for his attempt at suicide.

“Okay… So… What about if I made you some food and brought it in?” He asked innocently playing dumb about his anorexia. If Kazu wasn’t going to tell him about it the maybe he would be able to help him in a small way and Kazu snapped his head around staring at him, Jun watched as his tongue scraped over his lips as he gulped a few times. “Would you eat it then?” Jun prompted gently and Kazu looked away again

“... I… Um… I…” He stumbled and fumbled for the right words and Jun made it easy on him by saying

“Look what is the favourite thing you like to eat? Tell me and I’ll make it for you…You don’t have to eat it all…”

“Hamburger… I…like hamburgers…” Kazu whispered eventually though it took a long time for the words to come out and Jun nodded with another smile

“Okay, tomorrow I promise that I’ll bring you in a hamburger…” He said with a smile and Kazu looked troubled for a moment, he knew the reason and half of him wished that he didn’t have to keep up the charade but he had to do this the way the doctors wanted, mostly, or they might refuse to let him come again.

“You don’t have to…” Kazu said in another whisper and Jun shook his head as he started raffling through his bag taking out a Nintendo and a Mario game and putting on the bed beside him

“I said I would… But for now… I can give you this…” He said and Nino took it, playing with the controls “It’s hardly been used it was my ex- boyfriends…If he decides to come back for it…I’ll tell him I chucked it out”

“… Thanks…” Nino mumbled putting it in the lock cupboard beside the bed, as his hid a yawn with his hand. “Sorry… It’s been a long…Day…”

“Do you want me to go?” Jun asked just for the sakes of saying them, he knew what would happen next. Kazu hissed his hand automatically his gripping him tightly as his normally narrowed, uninterested eyes filled with fear and panic.

“No… Please… Please stay here… Until I fall to sleep… Please…” He gasped and Jun nodded stroking the back of his hand with his thumb until the wide brown eyes closed the long black eye lashes resting against his smooth pale cheeks. Once Kazu’s breathing had slowed into a steady pattern Jun picked up his bag and left the room saying good night to the nurses as he left the ward.

Before heading home he went to his local grocery for meat, he could have gone to a fast food joint but he always found them to greasy and since Kazu had refused real food since he had been in the hospital he wanted it to be the best thing Kazu had. He was a bit worried about keeping it warm but that was solved easily by him deciding to just take a cab to the hospital. He phoned his mum asking her for her opinion as he was picking the meat, wanting to get the best he could, even if Kazu wouldn’t eat it all he wanted him to at least taste it. He tried to ignore the girl that was flirting with him as he brought the meat and buns along with the other ingredients his mama had suggested, she always seemed to be in the hope when he was and she been flirting with him for the past week and although he had tried to defuse her he didn’t seem to be getting the hint. In the end she still pushed her number into his hand and he was too polite to refuse. The number went in the bin a soon as he got home.

The next morning he decided to ditch his lessons for a day and set about making the perfect burger that might, just might tempt Kazu into eating it. He wasn’t an idiot he knew that Anorexia wasn’t something that could be cured in one day with a hamburger but he wanted Kazu to at least be able to take a step forward. His first few attempts failed falling apart the moment they left the heat and in desperation he rang his mum who told him to use a binding ingredient like an egg and too his amazement the third burger worked and the burger looked perfect, or at the very least it was staying together. He put it into his lunch box and went to the hospital, Nino was playing with the game he had given him barely looking up to say

“Hey Samaritan” until Jun proudly put the plastic lunch box on the table that went over the bed “What’s that?” Kazu asked sceptically raising an eyebrow as he stared at the hamburger, the game going down onto the bed.

“Hey…I spent most of the morning making this…” Jun grumbled half-heartedly staring at the hamburger in the plastic container. “Just try a little bit… A bite at least…”

“I can’t”

“Why? I’m the only one here… Just a bite won’t hurt” Jun told him pushing the container closer to him, he watched as Kazu dragged his tongue over his dry cracked lips his eyes wide a shining. The trainee teacher heard the thin guys stomach rumble loudly as the smell must have hit him and his left hand reached out slowly. Jun tried not to hold his breath but it was impossible as he watched the fingers graze over the top of the bun.

“I… I can’t…” Kazu gasped pulling his hand away as if he had been stung.

“Does it look that bad?” Jun asked softly trying to be as understanding as possible. Until Kazu admitted that he had a problem with his eating not even the doctors would be able to help him and although “I can go fetch you one…”

“No… It’s not that… I… Don’t think I… There’s a lot there…I wouldn’t be able to handle all of that…”

“So how about if I eat half and you have half?” Jun asked taking out a knife from his bag and cutting the burger down the middle. Kazu looked pained for a moment hi eyes flicking to his.

“There’s still too much…”

“Then what about a quarter?” the trainee teacher said slicing one of the halves down the centre again “Just a little…”

“I… Okay…” Kazu sighed, his eyes closing and opening rapidly and Jun realised that he was blinking away some tears. He didn’t say anything though and gently held out the quarter of the burger to him, the small hands gripped it tightly slowly lifting it to his mouth. Jun kept his eyes away taking his half of the burger he bit into it his eyes only flicking up once when Kazu let out a soft sigh. There were teeth marks in the burger and Kazu was chewing, albeit slowly with a painful grimace on his face. He also made swallowing look painful but he had had his first bite which was followed slowly by a second and third until the quarter had gone. “I ate it” Kazu said with something like surprise in his voice. Jun just grinned finishing off his half. “It wasn’t as disgusting as hospital food…”

“I’m relieved you think so” Jun muttered as he finished the last quarter and then put the container away. It wasn’t much but it was a start he thought “So what do you want tomorrow?”

TBC

A/N: Hmm... I’m not sure about this part… I developed a migraine half way through >.< stupid English weather >.<