a song you can find anywhere

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Title: A song you can find anywhere

Author: krystalkatz

Rating: PG

Length: Chaptered

Genre: Non-Au (eep!), Romance, angst,

Pairings: Matsumoto Jun/Ninomiya Kazunari, Sakurai Sho/Aiba Masaki, Sakurai Sho/Aiba Masaki, mild Ohno Satoshi/Ninomiya Kazunari

Disclaimer: I only own the plot, title is Nino’s solo from ‘Beautiful World’

A/N: For the wonderful Salarygyaru, nekoshoujo, Yumi_Usagi, saffia_me, Gambitfox, hope you like it :-D

Nino’s pov…

Nino watched as Jun licked his lips nervously as he looked at Sakurai’s door, he had no idea why he was torturing himself by standing here like some creepy stalker but after he had heard the conversation earlier he hadn’t been able to stop his feet from bringing him here. He wanted to run and grab Jun’s hand and pull him away, maybe tell him that he was in love with him but he couldn’t he had always promised himself that unless Jun wanted him he would never be able to force his feelings on the younger man.

Jun knocked on the door softly and although Nino didn’t hear it, he must have received a reply, because a few seconds later he pushed the door open and went inside. As the door closed behind him Nino felt hot tears running down his cheeks as his heart shattered into a million and one pieces.

“Nino-kun, are you okay?” A soft sleepy voice asked and he turned to face Ohno. “Come on” the older boy said taking his hand and Nino found himself being pulled down the corridor and into Ohno’s bedroom. He was pushed down onto the bed and the blank faced idol  pushed a bottle of water at him which Nino took gratefully “What’s wrong?”

“I’m an idiot!” He mumbled as he sipped the water, Ohno pulled a face and ruffled his hair

“You’re a lot of things Nino-kun but an idiot isn’t one of them” He said and Nino let out a half hearted laugh

“So what would you call the person that just watched the person they loved go off with someone else?”

“Heartbroken…” Ohno mumbled staring at the wall opposite them and Nino had to agree right now he was completely heartbroken, just imagining the things that Jun and Sakurai would be doing was driving him insane. “But I wouldn’t call you idiotic, Nino-kun”

“Ohno…Are you sure you’re not even the tiniest but gay?”

“I’m not sure…” Ohno shrugged and Nino frowned wondering what the hell that meant, “I mean I’ve only ever been with girls before but… I kind of like it when Nino-chan touches me”

“What…” Nino breathed slowly licking his suddenly dry lips, is palms were sweating a little too and he knew he was blushing.

“Don’t worry I’m not making a pass at you… You asked so I answered” Ohno shrugged. Nino looked at the gentle sleepy face of his band mate, he really didn’t know him that well but he really wanted him to become a good friend in the future so he knew without a doubt that he shouldn’t ask the question that was in his head. He knew that and it made sense to him but then he had another flash of Sakurai kissing Jun in his mind and he said in a small voice,

“Ohno… Would you kiss me?”

“Nino-chan?” Ohno murmured, he didn’t seem surprised or shocked, just curious and Nino felt his confidence grow a little.

“Please?” He pleaded and the oldest nodded coming forwards. Ohno knelt on the floor in front of him so they were eye to eye and very slowly Nino closed his eyes as Ohno’s face moved in close to his and pressed their lips together. He could feel that Ohno was about to pull away and maybe apologise so he wrapped his arms around his neck and pulled him back into a proper kiss his mouth moving along with Ohno’s. It was his first kiss and it was warm wet and nothing like what he was expecting. 

“This isn't what you want is it?” Ohno asked against his lips and Nino shook his head, the kiss was nice but Ohno already felt like an older brother to him. He was about to apologise when the older boy smiled ruffling his hair “Come on, Nino, get into bed we can watch comedies till you fall to sleep” he said, Nino smiled doing as he was told climbing into the bed beside him. Ohno fell asleep during the first movie and as he looked at his face it was the first time Nino was grateful that he was put in Arashi.

Present

Nino got out of bed testing his leg and yelping loudly as pain ran down his leg, looking down at it he saw that it was about twice the size it should be. Taking a huge gulp of air he stood up and tried walking around the bedroom. Each step was painful and no matter how carefully he tried he couldn’t get himself to walk straight and with a hiss he struggled into some clothes taking some pain killers and went slowly down to the waiting car.

“Ninomiya-san, are you okay?” The driver asked as he hobbled towards him, and Nino gave a nod a grateful smile forming over his lips as he was helped into the car

“Thank-you” he sighed the pain easing a little as he rested into the soft leather seat his eyes almost instantly closing as he rubbed his sore throbbing leg trying to go over the routine in his mind wondering if there was any corners he could cut to save his leg. When they arrived at the studio the driver helped him inside only letting him go when they reached the dressing room “Thank-you” Nino said again and the driver gave a friendly smile and a bow and then left bustling off. Taking another deep breath the idol pushed opened the door his heart thumping when he realised that only Jun was there having is make-up done. Sucking in a deep breath of air he stumbled and staggered his way to the chair and let out an almost audible sigh of relief when the pressure lifted a little. He rubbed his leg, frantically trying to sooth the nerves that were screaming at him.

 “What the hell happened?” Jun asked his voice so clearly full of panic Nino was amazed. He watched his fuck buddy wave away the make-up artist who left silently. He tried not to gulp when Jun came to kneel in front of him, Jun’s reaction was understandable last night he hadn’t been limping this much, but how was he going to answer ‘You were fucking me so hard last night you didn’t realise you were crushing my leg?’ no way, no how, no chance, Nino thought trying not to look too much at Jun’s face. They weren’t in the apartment now, they were just band mates, a second after he had that thought he had to force himself to stay calm as Jun pushed his hands away and gently ran his own up over the screaming muscles. “Have you taken your pain meds?”

“Yes, stop fussing I promise I won’t mess up…” Nino answered, to his horror his voice came out in a whiny groan, hot tears of pain filled his eyes as Jun’s amazing fingers touched the most sensitive area.

“You’re not still thinking of dancing on this are you? You can barely walk…” Jun asked his fingers not stopping as he looked up at him with a half glare.

“I’ll be fine once the meds kick in…” Nino bit back, having to remind himself that Jun’s concern would by what he showed to any member and it wasn’t directed at him because it was him.

“Yeah, right up till you forget about it and pull it again…” Jun as he slipped off Nino’s Converse and started working on his swollen foot. “You didn’t answer me, what happened? When you left mine you weren’t this bad…”

“I tripped this morning…” Nino lied, knowing he would never tell the younger that it was because of him. Jun believed the lie and Nino tried not to sigh with happiness as he watched a smile curve Jun’s oh so kissable lips, he could feel his band mates fingers having an effect as he felt his muscles easing. He had moved away from the foot now and his magical hands were working on the ankle and the calf.

“How did you trip? I thought Aiba was the clumsy one” Jun mused and Nino looked at the white framed mirror, ‘Shit! Think Nino, think!’ “Tell me…”

“I tripped over my x-box wire…” He answered slowly, something like that was almost believable right? He was always playing on his games and accidents happen like that happen all the time. Except that Nino had a special entertainment centre that housed all his games machines that were all wired happily into his wide screen T.V.  Not a single wire could be seen throughout the entire thing and he was rather proud of it. But it was okay, Jun wouldn’t know that, they rarely went to is apartment after all and when they did the only room he saw was the bedroom.  Jun let out a laugh his hands going up the thigh and Nino couldn’t stop the soft breathy gasp escaping his mouth his eyes closed and he just let himself enjoy the touches Jun was giving him, losing himself in his fantasies that they were really lovers. But when the hands slipped further up his leg until they were almost caressing his member he tensed his eyes opening wide as his heart thudded. Looking into that face he didn’t know what to do and quickly he made a lame joke “Unless this is going to have a very ‘happy ending’ I think you should stop there…”

Jun blushed slightly and pulled his hands away slowly, getting to his feet just as the door opened. Sakurai and Aiba came in neither of them looked at them going to the sofa. Nino watched as Sakurai sat first and almost pulled Aiba down onto his lap, sleepily nuzzling his neck. Aiba gave a happy air brained giggle and Nino heard Jun release a small hiss, Nino’s heart sank his happy bubble bursting as he told him himself that he was just a substitute. The happy couple finally looked up at them, their faces forming matching surprised expressions, Nino could easily see why, Jun was still positioned in between his legs an looking at his own reflection he saw he had a very happy blissed out expression on his face. The combination of pain killers and massage had eased a lot of the pain he had been feeling.

Nino saw the way Sakurai’s eyes darted from each of their faces and he watched as Jun tried to sort out the expressions on his face, Nino guessed that he was going for an innocent ‘I was just trying to help out’ but if Nino was honest he was pulling off a guilty ‘I swear I wasn’t about to give him a blow job’ rather well. Nino gave a sigh ‘Back to reality’ he thought testing his leg and wanting to weep when he felt there was no pain

“Where did you learn to be so good with your hands, Jun-pon?” He asked in a breathy voice, “Maybe you should quit Arashi and become a full time masseuse… Or maybe we should do a new slot ‘Matsumiya Jk’”

“Like hell I’d do something like that with you…” Jun snapped back, and Nino nodded to himself, nope there never would be MatsuMiya except in his fantasies “You should be more careful where you’re falling over… What would happen to Arashi if you couldn’t perform?”

“Even though it would be hard I’m sure you would be able to cope with out me…” Nino said easily, flashing him a teasing grin through the mirror, this was the reality of their relationship and as long as it was him that Jun called in the middle of the night, he could continue to deal with it… Maybe.

 “No I wouldn’t! I wouldn’t be able to cope without you” Jun snapped and Nino turned to face him slowly wondering if he realised he had said ‘I’ instead of ‘we’ and had admitted that he wouldn’t be able to cope without him. Nino’s mouth dropped open as his eyes widened in his surprise. The tone of voice Jun was using was so panicked and sincere Nino wondered if he had the right to dream just a little.

“Jun…” He started stopping when he realised that Aiba and Sakurai were watching them intently. He could see Jun moving forwards wanting to know what he was going to say and his heart skipped with happiness as Ohno walked into the room saying they had about 10 minutes to go. The tense air broke as everybody started quickly getting ready as soon as they stepped out of the dressing room they became ‘Arashi’.  Nino found it almost irritating that Jun was being overly attentive to him. He was a professional he could handle the pain that he was feeling, his irritation was made worse by the fact that Jun’s words were running around and around in his head giving is stupid heart hope that he really didn’t need. He was so distracted by everything that his leg moved one way while his body went the other, twisting his knee yet again. His voice never faulted but he had to drag his foot when moving into his next position knowing that he would be taking a trip to hospital as soon as he was done here. But until then he had to focus, do his best and carry on.

TBC

A/N: I hope you enjoy ^.^