a song you can find anywhere

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Title: A song you can find anywhere

Author: krystalkatz

Rating: NC17

Length: Chaptered

Genre: Non-Au (eep!), Romance, angst,

Pairings:, Matsumoto Jun/Ninomiya Kazunari, Sakurai Sho/Aiba Masaki, Sakurai Sho/Matsumoto Jun

Disclaimer: I only own the plot, title is Nino’s solo from ‘Beautiful World’

A/N: For the wonderful Salarygyaru, nekoshoujo, Yumi_Usagi, saffia_me, Gambitfox I hope you like it :-D

After he had told himself that he was going to tell Jun he couldn’t stop himself from trembling with excitement and maybe a lot of fear. He wanted to get out of the hospital as quickly as possible but at the same time he hoped that the examination would last for as long as possible. He would never regret his choice to be a substitute for Sakurai, there had been a time when he was really worried about the younger man and he would have done everything and anything to make him better. The relationship was complicated but he knew that if they ever went back to that first drunken night together he would do the same thing again and again. Most people would think that he was stupid for just not telling him back then but nobody saw the way he was after the break up.

11 years ago…

“We’re dating!” Aiba said happily holding Sakurai’s arm, Nino’s stomach lurched his eyes going automatically to Jun’s face, he looked stunned, and also completely devastated as if his already broken heart was being smashed into a million tiny pieces but somehow he managed to force himself to smile and say

“I’m happy for you” and his voice didn’t even tremble.  Nino was completely impressed it was almost believable except that his eyes looked… Dead in his face. Anger filled his heart and his eyes snapped up to Sakurai, he couldn’t blame Aiba. As much as he had wanted to tell Aiba Jun had refused to allow him saying it wasn’t his fault. Throughout the day Aiba rattled on and on about how happy he was and how much he loved ‘Sho-chan’. Every time he opened his mouth Nino wanted to punch him in the end though he dragged Sakurai out and lifting his foot he kicked him straight in the groin

“You heartless fucking prick, how dare you do that to Jun!?” He screeched and Sakurai had the decency to look ashamed as he cupped is painful groin “Not only do you fucking cheat on him but now you flaunt it in front of him…”

“I know, I know but Ma-chan was so excited about telling everyone I tried…”

“You didn’t try hard enough” Nino snapped kicking him again, didn’t Sakurai know how many times he had found Jun drunk and almost paralytic over him? “If you don’t shut him up I’m telling him the truth… All of it…” He hissed and he wasn’t joking. He loved Aiba like an older brother but he was in love with Jun and he couldn’t stand to see the dead expression in his eyes.

“Okay, I swear I’ll get him to calm down…” Sakurai said in a choked groan and Nino nodded his eyes narrowing

“You’d better” he spat before turning on his heel and walking away from him, feeling slightly happier about himself. Sakurai was as good as his word and got Aiba to calm down with his gushing for the rest of the day. It wasn’t perfect but Jun looked a little more comfortable. After they had finished their activities Nino tried to corner him but he had a last minute meeting with his manager and by the time he had finished Jun was nowhere to be seen.

He tried the younger guys apartment and then his friends but nobody had seen him, Nino had a feeling that he knew where he was but he really didn’t want that to be true. After he had tried calling Jun’s phone for the third time that night, he sucked it up and headed to the bar. He hated how well he knew Jun sometimes, the younger guy was slumped over the counter, glasses piled up around him and looked already unstable. He let out a sigh and went to sit next to him

 ““J… You’re drunk again” He muttered hating the slurring laugh Jun let out as he ordered another drink. He really wanted to kill Sakurai for reducing his Jun to this “Is this about earlier?” He asked, inwardly groaning ‘what the hell, Kazunari? Of course this is about earlier! What the hell are you thinking?’ Jun let out another dry laugh his voice cracking with tears as he slurred,

“Well done, you get points for stating the obvious… They’re officially a couple we should celebrate!” He reached for the glass that was on the table but Nino grabbed it first “Give it back…”

“Nope” He shook his head standing up and holding the glass away from him, Jun let out an angry hiss, that sound less than impressive in his current state

“Why are you even here? You don’t care… You’re just here to make fun!”

“Yes that’s why I’m here… But right now you’re too pathetic to take the piss out of… I always knew you were a drama queen Junny-Jun but this is really gross…” Nino snapped, suddenly irritated that somebody as proud and fiery as Jun was allowing himself to get like this.

“Shut up!” Jun spat but Nino could see that the words were hitting home. Nino gave a half smile draining the drink trying not to frown at the strong taste,

“Come on princess… This isn’t worth it…If you’re angry, take it out on them, don’t destroy yourself… You’re way too good for that” he murmured, putting the glass down and trying to tug him to his feet. Jun got reluctantly to his feet and Nino smiled leading him outside hoping that nobody would see them. The last thing his Jun needed was a drinking scandal right now. Nino got him home and Jun stumbled drunkenly into his apartment, heading to the kitchen and Nino followed quickly, letting out a frustrated sigh as he saw him trying to grab some wine he slapped his hand and dragged him to the bedroom.

He tried to push him down onto the bed but Jun held him tightly and they collapsed in a tangled mess of limbs. His heart thumped as Jun giggled drunkenly, rolling around on top of him. ‘What the hell! This isn’t fair!’ Nino’s brain screamed wondering how much of a doM he was being right now. How much was he going to put up with? He gave a grunt and using amazing self-control he managed to push Jun off of him instead of holding him                                    

“Nino… Just stay here…” Jun moaned in a slightly breathless voice against his pillow. Nino knew that made sense, it was late and they had an early start in the morning anyway. It made sense, but there was no way he would be able to get through the night without Jun realising that…Nino Jr wanted to come out and play.

“I better not…” Nino mumbled getting up carefully from the bed, his penis was already half hard, stirred by having the one he loved so close, god he never knew that Jun smelt so good.

“Nino… Are you hard?” Jun asked and Nino was tempted to cry but instead he shot him a glare pulling at the front of his trousers trying to make himself more comfortable.

“You’ve been rolling around on top of me of course I’m going to have a reaction” he snapped in a strange, deeply aroused voice which sounded completely weird to his ears. But then he had never had another person in the room when he was like this before.

“You don’t even like me…” Jun sounded stunned but not as much as Nino was when the taller idol reached out to brush at the obvious tent in his jeans. Nino gave a cry twisting away hissing at him like a cat. Jun grinned, just a little

“Jun you’re fucking hot… and you smell really good… I’m just a man” Nino spat angrily his cheeks a little flushed, as he tried to stop Jun from figuring out the truth. The truth that he was a virgin that was very much in love with him.

“Nino… Do you want me?” Jun asked in a low voice and Nino’s eyes widened and shuffling over the bed. Nino let out a small whimper, thinking that maybe he had slipped into his own idea of heaven, a Jun that was looking at him with his eyes full of lust. He looked at Jun’s eyes captivated by the look. He wasn’t even aware that Jun had grabbed his hand until he was pulled down onto the bed with the taller idol straddling him. Nino looked up at him the flush on his cheeks spreading as Jun started to play with his clothed erection.

“J-Jun... W-why?” he whispered his voice trembling just slightly,

“Please… I need this” Jun answered in a pleading voice, and pain crept into his heart that was right, this wasn’t about him, he was just a comfort blanket somebody for Jun use, slowly Nino nodded with a small smile

“Okay Jun…For you it’s okay” He whispered meaning every word and was surprised when Jun almost crushed their mouths together. Nino tried his best to match what Jun was doing, but this was his first real kiss and he knew that he was messing up. Nino opened his mouth trying to get some air and he was surprised when Jun slipped his tongue inside. The kiss was harsher and more demanding then Nino had fantasied about. He guessed it was because Jun was thinking about the times when he was with Sakurai. At some point Jun’s long fingers had managed to open the flies of his jeans and he slipped his fingers inside. Nino hated the lines he got in his skinny jean when he wore underwear so he tended not to wear them and soon Jun’s beautiful fingers were touching his penis and Nino let out a long hard moan around Jun’s lips.

“Nino… Are you sure you want this?” Jun asked pulling out of the kiss just slightly looking down at him.

“If you stop now I’ll never forgive you” He spat and with a grin Jun pulled on the tip of his penis harshly as punishment.

They struggled out of the clothes throwing them onto the floor before pressing their bodies together in another intense kiss. Nino trembled as Jun’s hands trailed over his skin. He had dreamt about this so many times, but none of his fantasies had ever been as intense as this. He almost cried when Jun pulled out of the kiss.

His heart raced as Jun reached into his bedside drawer and he saw him pull out a half used bottle of lube and condoms. He might have never had sex before but that didn’t mean he hadn’t looked up about it and he quickly took a pillow and placed it under his hips before he parted his legs for him hoping that Jun would find him a little bit sexy “J… Have you ever topped before?” he asked breathlessly trying to sound like he knew what he was talking about as Jun came to settle in between his legs. He hoped the answer was ‘no’ and was relieved when Jun shook his head and chewed his lip. Nino reached up and stroked his face smiling a little, it was like they were losing their virginity together “Just do whatever Sakurai did” he said and with a nod Jun uncapped the lube and poured some down the long hard penis.

He shivered as the clear liquid trailed over solid skin of his penis down to the balls and he tried not to cum instantly when Jun dipped his fingers in and eased it further down to his hole. Nino gripped his ass cheeks and pulled them apart. He almost screamed as the first finger was pushed inside. His muscles instantly clenched around him trying to stop the pain that was burning through him. Jun pushed the finger in to the knuckle and Nino gave a gasp clenching around him even more. Slowly Jun started to finger him with just one finger, and Nino looked into his face wondering if somehow he suspected the truth. Nino forced his muscles to relax and a second finger was added repeating the process until three fingers were fucking him deeply, scratching at a spot inside that caused him to whine a little, he was glad when Jun placed a hot wet kiss onto his mouth easing the fingers out again. Jun broke the kiss, and Nino watched with half closed eyes as he rolled on the condom and lubed it a little. Nino took a deep as he saw Jun guide himself towards the prepared hole. Nino kept his eyes focused on Jun’s as his hole was slowly violated, the expressions on Jun’s face were amazing as he pushed his hips forwards deeper and deeper inside him.  Soon Jun was fully inside of him and he felt like crying with happiness. It felt amazing, so right, just like he had always imagined. Jun angled his hips a few times, as if he was searching for something and when Nino saw an explosion of colours in his head he guessed he had found it. Nino let out a long low moan griping at the youngers shoulder for a  minute. Deep shallow breaths filled the room and when Jun started slowing and deeply thrusting inside him, Nino’s arms came up to circle his neck and he let out long gasps as he started moving his own hips to match the almost frantic pace of Jun’s. he felt Jun biting and sucking at the centre of his chest and Nino clenched his wall of muscles around him tightly as his back arched as he got ready to cum. His mind went white as Jun reached down a hand and gently started stroking his penis. Nino shivered and groaned happily the muscles in his ass clenching around Jun, wanting to feel him as much as he could not knowing if he would ever have this moment again. Jun thumbed the tip feeling the pre-cum that had built up and Nino knew he was close

“J, I’m cumming” he screamed, and Jun quickened the thrusting of his hips and the pumping of his hand. Nino’s back lifted off the bed as he released with a soft shout. Jun continued to fuck him roughly through his orgasm and from the way that he was gritting his teeth Nino knew he was close. He stroked his back with trembling hands trying to help him find a release and sure enough after a few more harsh thrusts his body locked and he let out a short cry of

“Sho!” in a sweet gasping voice, before collapsing heavily onto his chest, deep pants filling Nino’s ear. Nino’s heart stopped beating and then he felt it shatter into a thousand pieces but slowly he hugged Jun listening to the sound of their pants and feeling the tears Jun didn’t know he was crying and he whispered

“Whenever you want me to be him… Just call okay?” Jun stared at him in shock his eyes wide as he was about to protest it, but Nino kissed him quickly “I’m not doing it for you…” He lied “I’m doing it for Arashi, we need you… So no matter when… Just call and I’ll do it…”

“Th-Thank-you” Jun whispered his tears coming quicker as he held him tightly.

TBC

A/N; and now we know how Nino defended his Junny ne xD I hope you enjoy ^.^