krystalkatzfics | kono mama motto

Title: Kono Mama Motto (Side story to: A song you can find anywhere)

Author: krystalkatz

Rating: NC17

Length: Chaptered

Genre: Non-Au, Romance, angst,

Pairings: Sakurai Sho/Aiba Masaki, Matsumoto Jun/Ninomiya Kazunari

Disclaimer: I only own the plot, title is Sakurai’s solo from ‘Beautiful World’

“I think Johnny-san made a mistake! I shouldn’t be in Arashi!” Aiba sobbed clutching the neck of the beer bottle tightly and Sakurai gave a laugh, his eyes shining as he looked at his friend. Friend, that was something he never thought that he and Aiba would be, two years ago when he had been first put into Arashi he had found the younger guy irritating to the point of wanting to kill him. With his overly bright smile and overly optimistic outlook on life but over the months and years that had followed he could see why Aiba was in the group, Johnny Kitagawa may be a lot of things, but idiot wasn’t one of them, he knew how to put together a boy band. Aiba was the mood maker, peacekeeper, the rock that their group was latched onto, the one the held the other four wildly contrasting personalities together and stopped them from killing each other. Sakurai knew that without him Arashi wouldn’t have lasted their first year.

Or maybe that was just how it seemed to Sakurai, because even though 2 years ago he hadn’t thought that they would become friends, Aiba was now the only reason that he could cope with the stupid hours a day they worked, the only reason he could pull himself out of much needed sleep. Guilt cut into his heart as he thought that it should be his boyfriend, Jun, that was his reason for loving going to work, but it wasn’t it was Aiba.

“What are you babbling on about?” He asked pulling himself out of his thoughts, deciding that he should really be going home to Jun. These thoughts were dangerous, all the more so when Aiba turned his tear stained beautiful eyes on to him,

“It’s true! I’m not talented like Ohno-kun! Or good at acting like Nino, or pretty like Jun-kun… Or clever like Sho-chan…” He sobbed “I shouldn’t be in Arashi!”

“Aiba… Masaki… You’re all of those things and you’re more…You’re the reason that I come into work every day and actually look forward to it. If you weren’t in Arashi I would leave… I need you in it with me, so don’t say you shouldn’t be in Arashi, Arashi wouldn’t be there without you…” Sakurai said and Aiba stopped crying wiping his eyes with the back of his hand

“Do you… Do you mean that? You’re not just saying it?”

“Nope… I mean every word Masaki… To me you are Arashi…” Sakurai nodded. Aiba gave a shy smile now, licking his lips nervously, a faint blush colouring his cheeks. Sakurai grinned at the action thinking how cute and innocent he always managed to look, even when he was talking about something perverted. The air in the room had changed and Sakurai could feel it, he tried to tell himself that he should just make his excuses and leave but he couldn’t, he didn’t want to, the minute that Aiba edged closer to him he knew, he knew that this was the reason that he couldn’t tell Aiba and Ohno the truth about him and Jun, the reason that when Jun was being openly flirty with him he found it irritating rather than cute. He was in love with him, it hadn’t been love at first sight but the feelings he had towards his band mate had morphed into the most wonderful complete love he had ever experienced.

“Ano… Sho-chan…” Aiba whispered looking at him with a steady gaze but Sakurai could see his Adam's apple bobbing as he gulped nervously “I… Um…I think I like you…”

“You just think?” Sakurai teased, half knowing that he should leave here before he made a huge mistake. But when Aiba shook his head quickly Sakurai knew that he was caught,

“No… I know I like you… I like Sho-chan a lot…” He said grabbing his hand so hard what was left in the bottle spilled out on to the top of the table. “I-I lov-e Sho-cha-n”

“I love Masaki too” Sakurai whispered, twisting his hand around so could hold his band mates. It was a different touch to Jun’s, the fingers coarser, the skin broken and the nails chipped, it was also sweatier but it felt so right in his and Sakurai knew that after tonight he wouldn’t want to let that hand go.

“No I mean, not just as a friend… I mean I really love you…” Aiba mumbled his voice shaking with nerves, and Sakurai ran his thumb over the back of his hand

“I know what you mean… I really love you too” he told him softly. His mind only went briefly going to Jun, who would be waiting for his call before he tugged Aiba to him and pressed their mouths together. Everything about the kiss was different than when he was with Jun, there was more excitement running through his body. His mouth hungrily sucked at Aiba’s plump lips, taking away the younger guys oxygen one hand going into his hair to hold him close, the other pulling at the t-shirt his friend was wearing.

“Sh-o-cha-n… Wai-t…” Aiba said pushing at his shoulders to hold him away and Sakurai tried to focus his eyes so he could look at him,

“Wha-t’s wron-g?” he gasped seeing the mild fear in his eyes

“Ano, I don’t want this to go wrong… I’ve liked Sho-chan for so long and I don’t want this to affect Arashi… Maybe we shouldn’t…”

“It’s okay Masaki… we won’t let this affect Arashi” Sakurai promised though he wasn’t sure how much that was true, but when he saw Aiba’s smile he decided that he would make it work somehow.

“Sho-chan…I don’t want to disappoint you…” Aiba muttered looking upset again, and gently Sakurai stroked his cheek brushing his silky hair out of his face

“You couldn’t possibly disappoint me, Masaki… Because to me you’re so unbelievably perfect…” Sakurai whispered and then pulled him back into another kiss tugging at his t-shirt, up and showing the beautiful skin of his stomach and then nipples, before completely pulling it free and attaching his lips to the birth mark that he loved so much. Aiba’s breath came out in an excited gasp that sounded like music to Sakurai’s ears. His hand moved slowly over the hot skin, loving the way Aiba’s muscles contracted under his touch. His fingers moved down to the hairs on his stomach and then the front of his jeans. “You’re already hard?” Sakurai asked with a smile looking into Aiba’s blushing face.

“Sor-ry…”

“Don’t be…Let’s move from here ne?” Sakurai suggested pulling him to his feet and tugging him in the direction that he knew the bedroom was in. He walked backwards to the bed his lips claiming Aiba’s as they moved, when they reached the spacious double bed he turned pushing the younger onto the mattress first. Aiba gave a breathless giggle his eyes dancing as Sakurai pulled off his shirt and threw it down onto the floor.

“I never thought this would happen… I thought that you and Jun…” He said and Sakurai felt his heart thud at the mention of Jun but he pushed it away as Aiba stroked is stomach his fingers moving around the stomach piercing. Sakurai took the hand and kissed each finger in turn before sucking on them enjoying the way Aiba blushed at the action. He really was so adorable, Sakurai thought releasing the fingers and crushing their mouths together again, his body covering the taller. He could feel Aiba’s erection pressing against his and he rolled hips against him causing his partner gasp against his mouth.

Gently Sakurai pulled away, unzipping Aiba’s jeans and tugging them down along with his boxer shorts, revealing the beautiful hard flesh that was already glistening with pre-cum, a growl escaped his throat as he kissed the tip, licking up the slit, “Sho-cha-n!” Aiba moaned covering his face with his hands as Sakurai completely engulfed him sucking almost harshly. His hand came up to toy and play with the balls, massaging them while his mouth moved expertly over the shaft, bobbing up and down trying to take in as much of it as he could. Aiba was gasping and panting sweetly and Sakurai quickly spat, pre-cum and spit onto his fingers and using it as lube he began teasing out the warm hole, aching to be inside him. Aiba was close, he could tell by the way his balls tightened and his back arched and he released him with a moist pop

“Not yet” He murmured licking his lips looking into Aiba face, “Let me see your face, Ma-sa-ki-ch-an…” he teased and slowly Aiba moved his away looking at him. “So beautiful…”

“Plea-se… Sh-o… Be in… Me…” Aiba moaned and Sakurai felt his hips moving on his fingers, with a smile Sakurai pulled out his fingers and then pulled down his trousers his own solid cock springing out

“Do you have condoms?” He asked hoping that the answer would be yes.

“N-o…But it’s okay… I’m clean…” The younger man said and Sakurai nodded and parted his legs lifting them up he nudged the tip of his penis in between the round butt cheeks. Slowly he thrust his hips forwards until he was all the way inside “Urgn… Sh-o-chan…”

“Fuck so tight… So perfect…” Sakurai gasped angling his hips to find a good position, he rocked his hips slowly at first but getting faster and harder when Aiba told him to. He found Aiba’s spot instantly loving the way his lover clenched around him, “Argn…”

“Sh-o…Sho…Sho!” Aiba almost screamed in his ear and Sakurai slammed into him harder and deeper his mouth going back to the discoloured shoulder sucking and biting as Aiba clawed at his back. They were both so close their bodies glistening with sweat, they called each other’s names not caring how loud they were. Aiba did scream and as Sakurai felt his lovers cum hit his stomach he smacked hips in his body locking as he released everything he could in short sharp bursts shouting

“Masaki!” As he did so, with a groan he slumped forwards onto Aiba who wrapped his arms around him, holding him tightly. Aiba’s lips brushed against his skin as he tried to regulate his breathing, eventually his heart rate relaxed and he pulled out moving to the side Aiba still holding him tightly. His body hummed happily as he held Aiba tightly in his arms breathing in the sweaty but fresh scent of his hair. He closed his eyes, guilt moving through heart as he tried to work out what he was going to tell Jun. He hated himself for betraying his boyfriend of two years but he couldn’t stop help his love for the man in his arms.

“Sho-chan…” He heard Aiba say and he opened his eyes while Aiba turned around in his arms to look at him,

“Ugn…Yeah?” Sakurai asked, sleepily looking up at him and Aiba smiled stroking his face with his finger tips and Sakurai was positive that he had an angel in his arms

“Don’t ever leave me, okay?”

“I promise… I love you Ma-chan” Sakurai murmured kissing his nose before hugging him tightly and falling to sleep.

Sakurai woke in a cold sweat, his hand clinging Aiba’s empty side of the bed, sitting up with a groan he looked around at the empty room until his gaze settled on the note that had been left in place of the picture. It wasn’t written by Aiba he knew that, the hand writing was too neat and the words were spelt correctly, but it was more than likely what he had wanted to say. He let out a sigh pushing his hair out of his eyes he opened the bottom drawer of his bedside table, inside was a collection of newspapers and after he moved them aside he pulled out a small velvet box. Two rings were nestled inside and he poked at them gently with his finger, they would never have been able to wear them in public but he had hoped that they would have worn them in private, if only he hadn’t made such a complete and utter mess of things.

TBC

A/N: Hmm… I hope you enjoy there’s only about 3 parts to this xD