kono mama motto

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Title: Kono Mama Motto (Side story to: A song you can find anywhere)
Author: krystalkatz
Rating: R for swearing
Length: Chaptered
Genre: Non-Au (eep!), Romance, angst,
Pairings: Sakurai Sho/Aiba Masaki, Matsumoto Jun/Ninomiya Kazunari
Disclaimer: I only own the plot, title is Sakurai’s solo from ‘Beautiful World’

“You fucking, mother fucker, you complete and utter son of a bitch whore!” Nino spat as soon as Sakurai opened the door to the intense knocking, the shorter guy stormed into the apartment before flying into another attack of swearing in a pitch that only dogs cold hear clearly  “I’m going to fucking kill you what the fuck do you think you are fucking playing at!?”

He had been expecting someone, one of the other members, maybe Jun or more likely Ohno, he never dreamed that it would be Nino, but then given the way that the bratty gamer did love his friend he didn’t know why he was so surprised. Nino took a fighting stance in front of him, even though he looked completely wobbly on his bad leg.

“Nino, I…” Sakurai started but Nino held up his hand a loud hiss coming out of his mouth, his eyes flashing dangerously,

“I wanted to play this rationally because not even I think you’re a big a dick enough to hurt Masaki…” He said in a low voice, “But it seems like I was wrong, so if you don’t give me a reason in the next five seconds, I swear Sakurai Sho I’m going to kick you so hard the only singing you’ll be doing is opera… So… Five…Four…”

“Nino, its not that easy…” Sakurai tried, he wanted to explain he wanted to tell the truth but if he did that, he sighed watching his friend count down, even if Nino would hate him even more it would be nice to share this weight that had been pressing down onto him, crushing his soul.

“Three… Two…On-“

“A reporter knows about me and Ma-chan” He shouted just as Nino was warming up his leg “A few weeks ago, Ma-chan and I got into a fight, it wasn’t anything too serious, just work related… But I did something stupid, I went to a club and got drunk, and while I was completely out of my mind some guy tried to hit on me and I confessed that Masaki and I were lovers…He turned out to be a reporter…”

“What? How could you be that stupid?” Nino mumbled his leg falling back to the floor again, as his eyes widened looking at him.

“I don’t know! I was drunk…” Sakurai whined, he already knew that he was stupid for doing that  “As I’ve gotten older I’ve wanted to be able to tell people more… I hate it when we keep getting those questions about girlfriends and dating and I can’t just say ‘I’m very much in love, we’ve been together for 11 years…please continue to support us’  It drives me crazy that we have to have dating scandals… Or pretend girlfriends… I want to marry Aiba Masaki…” He sank into the chair knowing that he was barely making any sense and was just rambling now. He pulled the rings out of his pocket and threw them at the silent Nino before hugging himself and resting his head on his arms “At this rate I’m going to be a 100 before I can ever tell the world the thing that I’ve known since mine and Masaki’s first incredible night together… He’s the only person I want to be with forever”

“Why didn’t you just tell Masaki?” Nino asked and Sakurai looked up at him and saw him looking at the rings in mild disbelief.

“Because he would have said it didn’t matter and would have stayed with me regardless… And because when it comes to him I’m completely selfish I would have let him”

“So you made him think you were having an affair? You know he’s completely destroyed right now, don’t you?”

“He’ll be okay… He’s stronger than you think…” Sakurai mumbled regretting it when Nino slapped him hard across the cheek

“You know he got into bed with me and Jun last night because he couldn’t sleep because he missed you…” He snapped and Sakurai felt a sting of pain in his heart, because of his stupid mistake he had hurt his beloved Aiba so much,  

“I thought if we broke up the reporter wouldn’t be able to print it and we wouldn’t have to lie when we said it wasn’t true…” He said knowing that he had made a bad decision, but not seeing a way of being able to correct it. Every single option seemed completely and utterly hopeless.

“So when is this scandal meant to hit the shelves?” Nino sighed, sitting next to him and handing him the rings back. Sakurai shrugged, he didn’t know for certain, so far it didn’t seem that the paper had any real proof and just seemed to be taunting him with it, but he couldn’t risk Aiba being exposed to something that could hurt his career, even with everything it entailed Aiba adored being an idol and Sakurai thought that he deserved to be one, and Sakurai thought that if he was going down he wasn’t going to take his lover with him.

“I’m not sure they haven’t given me a date…” he said playing with the ring box in his hands.

“How much did you blab to this reporter?” his band mate asked and again he shrugged

“I don’t know… I really was drunk…The guy was completely coming on to me and I know I said that I already had a boyfriend and he said oh ‘as cute as me’ and I’m positive that I said something stupid like ‘as cute as Aiba Masaki’ even a rookie reporter would be able to add 2 and 2, Nino…”

“Geez…” Nino groaned pinching the bridge of his own nose “11 years and because you’ve hit 30 you decide to shout it from the rooftops?”

“There are other reasons…My parents aren’t holding out hope for grandchildren… But they think it’s time I settled down”

“Have they ever seen this place?” Nino said looking around at the apartment that looked like a family home stuffed full of memories “I’d say you’re completely settled down…They’ve supported you so far, Sho, I’m sure they will continue to do so… No matter what… The first thing you’ve got to sort out is Masaki… An emotionless Masaki is not something I want to see…”

“But… What about the reporter?”

“You know, you’re a completely stupid? Right now that reporter is the last thing you should be worrying about…”

“What… If he prints that article everything that we’ve worked for as Arashi will be destroyed…”

“Yeah but if you don’t get your butt to Jun’s apartment right now you’re going to lose everything you worked for as Sakurai Sho... It will all be destroyed…And then you really would be left with nothing… I… Me and Jun we’ve been fucking for 11 years…” Nino admitted and Sakurai gapped at him his mouth almost scraping on the floor. “A few weeks after you and Aiba… I’d been in love with him before that but… Well I offered to be your substitute because I thought I was going to lose him… We only really got together a few days ago… But if it were me and it was him or Arashi… Sorry guys, I’d pick him every time...And that’s why you couldn’t break up with Masaki too, ne… you want him over Arashi…”

“Yes… I do…” Sakurai nodded holding the ring box so tightly in his hand it hurt.

“Then let’s go and sort this out…” Nino smiled getting slowly to his feet and holding out his hand for him. Slowly Sakurai took it getting to his feet putting the ring box in his pocket and giving his first real smile for a while.

TBC

A/N: Hmm… I’m not sure about this but I was just trying to show the strange Sakurai that’s been ‘reported’ recently, I guess I failed…