las palabras de amor

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Title: las Palabras de Amor (the words of love)

Author: krystalkatz

Rating: PG13

Length: Chaptered

Genre: AU Romance, angst,

Pairings: Matsumoto Jun/Ninomiya Kazunari, Sakurai Sho/Aiba Masaki

Disclaimer: I only own the plot, title is from Queen

Warning: mentions abuse and suicide

9 years earlier...,

“He-lp…” Ninomiya Kazunari gurgled frowning when he tasted his own blood in his mouth.  He wanted sleep, sleep was the answer, he was so tired and his body hurt so much. But if he slept he would find him again, he always found him. His hand scraped over the bricks of the balcony, his body remembering the way out by instinct. He had lived all the six years of his life in the apartment building he knew it like the back of his hand. His feet were dragging his step jolting his painful broken body and he prayed that they would hold him up until he was out. Nobody in the apartment building would help him, they all knew what was happening but never once had the tried to help him. He managed to find he stumbled his body falling before he could even put his hands out to steady himself. Suddenly hands were on him, gentle small hands that were shaking slightly as they moved over his body

“Nino-chan” He heard a voice through the fog in his brain, he thought he recognised it but he couldn’t be positive. “What happened who?” He heard the voice closer to his ear and Nino turned and tried to look at him through his bloody eyes.  He sighed, thinking that what he wanted to sleep and never wake up, not waking up would be better than coming back into this life. This life where he was used as a punching bag whenever his stepfather decided that he had grown sick of the sight of him, or felt used for having to take care of someone else’s kid. Giving up on trying to see who it was he closed his eyes hoping that sleep and maybe death to come quickly and stop the pain.

“No!” The voice snapped in a desperate whimper “you’re not allowed to sleep! I saw it in a film, If you sleep you won’t wake up!” Releasing a painful gasp he finally managed to open his eye enough to look at the person that was treating him gently and he recognised him as Matsumoto Jun, the land lords son. Nino had always been envious of him but it wasn’t his fault he was a nice kid with a real, good family and parents that really loved him. Jun had always been nice to him, he even let him play with his video game and when they were at school he would put chocolate bars in his lunch box. Jun vanished and Nino wished that he hadn’t, he closed his eyes again as another wave of pain came crashing over him,

He didn’t hear the footsteps but soon he heard Jun’s panicked tearful voice shouting “No! You’re not allowed to go to sleep!” Nino half opened his eyes again “The ambulance will be here! Please… If you stay awake I’ll let you play on all my games!” He bargained childishly.  Nino thought that he was too tired to talk back, but by some miracle he managed to force himself to keep his eyes open and look at the boy,

“Jun…” he coughed weakly, more foul tasting blood in his mouth, and even through the pain he felt Jun’s little hands on him, smoothing out his hair. They weren’t really friends, Nino wasn’t allowed friends but he had always hoped that in another life that maybe they could have been really been friends. He would have liked a friend. They were the same age, or almost, he could vaguely remember that Jun said he was a month or two younger than him, but right now Jun seemed older. The edges of his eyesight was beginning to blur and go dark  

“I’m here, Nino-chan” Jun sobbed “Don’t die…” Nino could feel him away the wet substance that was on his face when Nino’s eyes shifted to his hands he could see that it was blood. “I called the ambulance… I did so don’t die…You’re not allowed to die”

At some point he must have lost his fight to stay awake because when he came back to his senses he was in a soft bed with two women, the older one looked like a nurse and the other looked like a doctor. They hadn’t noticed that he was awake and since he didn’t feel like talking to anyone he closed his eyes again listening to the conversation between them

“Poor mite… Who could do such a thing?” An older sounding voice asked and Nino heard her clicking her tongue. The was the rustling of some papers and then another voice put in

“It doesn’t look like it was the first time either, the x-rays show multiple fractures that have never been treated…”

“But he can’t be any more than five or six” The nurse said, and Nino was positive that she sounded like she was about to cry. He hated the sound of women crying his mum did it all the time. It wasn’t always that way, two years ago, before she met Him, she was always laughing, a high teasing laugh that filled the hall. She was always smiling then, her hair shiny and neat around her face and her clothes always tidy. She never smiled now, her eyes were always red with tears that she had been crying or was about to cry, her hair lank and lifeless around her pale face and her clothes were wrinkled as there was no time to make herself nice since she was always running around after him. He remembered when she used to make herself look nice, he would sit on the bottom of the shared futon watching her brush her hair exactly 50 times before smooth her face with powder. She had always thought she was so beautiful then, before him. There was more rustling and then someone gently opening his eye lid. He whined as a bright light almost blinded him and when he regained his focus he saw the doctor smiling at him

“Welcome back, Ninomiya-kun” She said softly putting the penlight away. “Do you remember what happened?”

Nino’s brain panicked, remembering what his mama had said ‘You can’t tell the truth Kazu… If you tell the truth you will be taken away from me… You don’t want to be taken away from me do you?’ He didn’t want to be taken away from his mama, he loved her and she needed him.

“I… Tripped and fell…” He said, his voice chapped and rough to his own ears and a searing hot pain ripped through his nervous system.

“It’s okay Ninomiya-kun, your mama has told us everything…”

“No! I tripped and I fell!” Nino gasped out again and then the door slid open and he saw his mama in the doorway, he was stunned that she was smiling at him, the gentle smile he remembered from the reflection in the mirror. The nurse and the doctor looked at each other and then left the door closing softly behind them “Mama… I didn’t tell! I want to stay with mama…”

“Shh, baby it’s okay… Kazu, I told everybody the truth, he won’t be able to hurt you again…” She said a fingers running delicately over his face “He’s been arrested Kazu…”

“And Mama… Mama is safe?” Nino asked and she nodded letting out that laugh he remembered so well and had missed so much.

“Yes, mama is safe…Now you rest baby…” She said kissing his forehead “I promise it will all be better when you wake up…”

She had lied, when he woke up he found out she had killed herself by throwing herself from the roof of the hospital. Numb with the shock of her death and the pain of his broken body he went through the motions of rehabilitation and then before he knew it, it was his last night in the hospital and tomorrow morning he would be going to Cherry Blossom Orphanage. He was laying in his hospital bed staring up at the white sterile ceiling, tears rolling down his cheeks when the door slid open

“Nino-chan… Nino-chan it’s Jun…” a voice said and Nino looked at him through the tears and he was surprised when the younger boy climbed into the bed holding him tightly “I’m here Nino… You can cry all you want… I’m here…”

A sob sounded around the room, pulling Nino from his memory ridden sleep and looking over at the single bed he saw that Jun was crying again. Carefully so he didn’t disturb Aiba he climbed down from his bunk and crawled into bed holding him tightly.

“I’m here, Jun, you can cry all you want… I’m here…”

TBC

A/N: Depressing I know… I’m sorry >.<