krystalkatzfics | Strange Relationship (Part 8)

Title: Strange Relationship

Author: KrystalKatz

Rated; R

Length: Chaptered

Genre: Romance, Angst, SakurAiba fluff, AU

The disclaimer thingy: Yeah I wish I owned them but my name isn't Johnny... I could change my name to Johnny but I still wouldn't own them... I only own a cat named Aiba and the plot

Pairings: MatsuMiya, SakurAiba, SakuMoto (Friendship) AiMiya(Friendship)

Guests: Nishijima Takahiro (AAA) <I changed his age too, he's the same age as Aiba in this> and Domoto Koichi (KinKi kids) <Like wise with the age he's ten years older *Sorry Ko-chan, I still love you*>

A/N; Warning some slightly emo Nino, sorry about that, I love Nino so it was really hard writing him like this. :-(, character ages changed, Ohno is about 8 or 9 years older, Aiba and Sakurai are about 6 years older than Matsumoto and Ninomiya.

Matsu chewed his lip as he flicked through the DVD's, Nino had been acting strangely since yesterday, every time he turned around, he had found him staring at him his mouth opening and closing as if he wanted to say something. Matsu knew what was coming, Nino was getting better, soon he would want to leave and maybe they would only talk to each other through insults again, he hated the idea of that, but he knew he no right to ask for anything.

"Ne, Jun..." He hands froze on a DVD, his heart pounding against his chest as he wondered if this was it. The past week with Nino had been tense, but he loved every minute of it. Even the sarcastic comment’s about his beauty products. His heart was in his mouth as he turned to face him raising an eyebrow.

"Yeah?"

"Do you have any of the videos from when we were kids?” Nino asked looking up at him from his ds, "Or was it all destroyed?"

"I have one... My dad gave me it when I moved here" He answered trying to hide his relief as he went to the hall closet and pulling out a video, it had been a strange house warming gift but his dad had been beaming as he gave it him. I've never watched it though so I have no clue what’s on it"

"Well let's watch it together" Nino smiled turning off his ds and going to plug in the VCR.

They settled on the settee, as the screen flickered to life, old footage of Matsu as a baby flashed on the screen, causing Nino laugh loudly "Look at your eye brows" He snorted, his eyes dancing as he pointed at the screen.

"Oi, brat..." Matsu snapped but he was smiling happy to hear the laughter. The scene changed to babies laying side by side one had a mole on his chin, but they would have known it was Nino. The video was disjointed clips of both of them, their first shared birthday, only five and already their tiny hands were locked together, tightly, Matsu pulled Nino around, away from anyone that might try and dare to come between them.

"Wow there was a time when you were taller than me" Matsu laughed, Nino stuck his tongue out, as their chibi selves were waving at them from the TV. "I'm amazed that dad kept all this..."

"I would have thought your mum would have burnt it all..." Nino breathed his eyes fixed, on their first school play. Laughing softly when Matsu forgot a line and he hissed it in his ear.

"Me too" He mumbled thoughtfully, all of the clips were of him and Nino, just random moments throughout their lives. He scratched his head wondering if this was his dads’ way of saying sorry for everything or that he had approved of their relationship, he’d heard his mum’s view on it but his dad had never voiced an opinion.

"It's strange; I thought it would be hard watching this but it makes things easier..." Nino whispered a he turned to face him Matsu saw the tears in his eyes and he knew what was coming "Why did we fall apart, Jun?"

"Because I was a coward... That day we were caught, my mum ripped into me so hard," Matsu murmured taking his hand thankful when he didn't pull away, all though his eyes were full of pain. "The things that made sense at the time, about that I was just confusing our brotherly love for real love, everything between us... Then your dad..."

"My dad? What does my dad have to do with it?"

"The day before I saw you at the cafe, he said if I didn't break things off with you, he'd sell pictures of us together to the press... We were both just starting out; you were going to be in Dino rangers, if it leaked... Shit... I made such a fucking mess of things; I stupidly told myself that I was doing the right thing..."

"You were just protecting your fucking career" Nino snapped "You were the one good thing in my life, and you just ripped it away from me... If you wanted to stop seeing me because 'It was the right thing to do' a phone call would have been nice... Or you could just have told me what was going on... Making me feel like crap in front of your friends, that fucking sucked... Every day for past four years, I've dreamt about it...I've relived it so many times..." Nino stopped, angrily blinking away his tears "Fuck! I didn't want to cry..."

"I couldn't, I had to make you hate me, Kazu'. I wanted you to cut me out of your life; I wanted you to carry on without me... You were always stronger than I was..."

Nino let out a bitter laugh, "Guess it just proves who the better actor is..."

“I guess I don’t deserve it but... Can you forgive me?”

“I... I didn’t want to, I wanted to keep hating you, and I guess it would be easier... But I can’t, we were both just kids,” Nino sighed after looking at him for what seemed an eternity. “If it had been me I might have done the same thing... You saved my life by calling that night...It wasn’t the first time I’d been up on that roof but that night... It was the first time I’d stepped onto the ledge, I was just about to step forwards when your call came through...”

Matsu watched him in silence; he hadn’t realized just how close he’d been to losing Nino. His grip tightened on Nino’s hand unconsciously, Nino looked at him with a watery half smile “It wasn’t just you, you were a part of it but it was just... Everything, it had been building for awhile and that day, I was told by my college that my ‘grades had slipped beyond a satisfactory level and I should rethink my place on the course’. It was just too much” Nino sighed running his fingers through his hair “I just thought it would be better if I wasn’t here... If I was never born maybe my parents would still be together, maybe you would have been normal... Do you remember our first kiss? When were eating that, strawberry ice cream?”

“Yes...You said ‘I wonder what yours tastes like’ and kissed me” Matsu nodded is eyes flashing playfully. Nino laughed but there was barely any feeling in it

“If I hadn’t done that, that day... I just forced my feelings on you...”

“I would have kissed you; I already loved you before then...” Matsu shook “I wanted to do it too... You just got there first...Kazu'... I never stopped loving you..."

"Jun, don't... I can't do this again... I can't be in love with you again" Nino whispered finally pulling his hand away. "I'm not strong enough... If I let myself, love you and you leave me again..."

"I wouldn't leave you, never again..." Matsu murmured grabbing his arm dimly aware that the screen was showing their 13th birthday party, the year everything started going wrong. "Kazu... I promise..."

"We've made so many promises before what makes you think it would be any easier to keep? In fact given our current situation it will be more than impossible don't you think?" Nino gave a tired smile and linked their fingers tightly "But I'm happy... To hear that..."

"Okay, Kazu” He nodded tears shining in his own eyes, Nino bit his lip staring at him, Matsu saw the flicker in his eyes and pulled him against his chest “But no matter what you say I am staying as your friend...And I will make you trust me again” He felt Nino let out a soft sigh, and closed his breathing in the scent of his hair, wondering why, since they were using the same shampoo Nino smelt so amazing to him. His heart ached dully, but if this was what Nino wanted he would go along with it for now he decided. They stayed in their hug for awhile both listening to the others heartbeat, at some point the video had finished but neither wanted to be the first to pull away.

“Make me trust you again” Nino whispered and Matsu tightened his grip.

“I promise”

A/N: Part 8, MatsuMiya finally talked things out, hope you enjoy! ^.^