You're not mine

[krystalkatzfics]

Title: You’re not mine

Author: krystalkat
Rating: NC17
Length: Mini Chaptered.
Genre: Au, Romance,
Pairings: Matsumoto Jun/Ninomiya Kazunari
Disclaimer: I only own the plot

The smell of sex still filled the hotel room, and Ninomiya Kazunari opened his eyes slowly looking at the soft raise and fall of his lover’s chest. Super idol Matsumoto Jun, he was so beautiful, Nino thought looking at his face. It should be perfect laying here in the warm after ex-sex glow but instead guilt cut into his soul as he realised that soon Matsu would be leaving him like always. Today different, today when they separated it would be for the last time.

“Are you trying to fuck me with your eyes, Kazu?” Matsu asked stroking his back without opening his eyes.

“I was trying to work out how long you were going to sleep…”

“Hmm…” Matsu grinned, pulling him down by the back of his neck and crushing their mouths together and rolling him onto his back. The idol settled on top of him so their groins were rubbing together. They ground together as Matsu reached for the lube that had been discarded earlier. Nino kissed his shoulder wishing that he could leave his mark but knowing that he couldn’t.

They had met a year ago when he had been busking tables in a seedy bar in the bad half of the gay district. He had recognised him straight away but sensed that the idol didn’t want to be recognised and had played it cool. They had fucked that night, which became the first of many, whenever Jun had a night free they met up and fucked like rabbits. At first Nino had taken it for what it was a quick way of stress relief but his greedy nature wanted more he wanted Jun to love him and only him.

“Jun…”Nino whispered looking up into Jun’s face as his heart asked the question he couldn’t say out loud ‘Do you love me?’ Nino

“What?” Jun asked his eye brow raised as he smeared lube over his hard cock.

“Nothing… Fuck me hard okay?” Nino told him and Matsu nodded kissing him again, positioning himself against the already prepared hole. Nino moaned loudly as he was invaded, the firm cock automatically hitting his spot as if it had been guided there by some mystical force. Matsu felt so hot inside him, so amazing… So right, it was easy to forget that he didn’t belong to him. Soon Matsu did deep steady thrusts, his teeth biting at his shoulder marking him in the way he wasn’t allowed. He held Matsu’s lower back as tightly as he could without leaving fingerprints, moaning his name continuously. Nobody had ever felt as amazing as Matsu did, but Nino knew that was because he had never been in love with anybody like he was the idol. “J-u-n… Kis-s me…” Nino begged, because there was nothing like pouring salt into an open wound, ne?

Matsu did as he was asked his tongue plunging deep into his mouth and his penis did the same in his ass. When they broke apart Matsu kept his face close and while his eyes were closed in the pleasure his body was giving him, Nino studied each feature, each moment wanting to memorise it all. Sweat had beaded slightly on his face, much the same as it did when he was on tour with his band Yume, and Nino thought, like he always did how gorgeous he looked. He started rocking his hips to match and counter the pace of Matsu’s which added to the overwhelming pleasure they were both getting from the experience.

“Ka-z-u…” Matsu groaned spinning them around so Nino was now on top, riding him hard as the new position allowed his prostate to be hit in so many wonderful ways. He placed his hands on the idols well-formed but still slender chest and guided the movements slow but deep wanting to remain as connected to Matsu for as long as he humanly could. The idol gave a groan that resounded around the entire room reaching up to stroke at his face Nino kissed the thumb and despite the lewd actions they were doing elsewhere a cute almost shy grin appeared on his lover’s face. The hand dropped from his cheek to cup at his ass urging him to go faster and harder.

Nino arched his back over and Matsu sat up to kiss and suck at the pale flesh on his body and Nino trembled as his nipple was bit and sucked. He found himself being pushed onto his bed again, his legs almost painfully twisted behind him, but the pain was good, it only added to the sensations only this man could give him. He wasn’t allowed to mark him but his fingers moved into the sweaty silky hair tugging at it as he urged more biting and more, deeper, thrust.

He almost screamed as he felt one of Matsu’s hands leave his ass to stroke and fondle at his penis, a well-shaped nail painfully dragging around the foreskin and then the slicked slit. Urging him silently to cum. In his turn, Nino gripped as tightly as he could at the hot solid length that was doing incredible things inside him, knowing he had got it just right when he heard

“Fuck… Yes… So good…” Being called out against his skin, the hand on his penis worked its magic and soon Nino was crying out as his thick creamy seed shot out over Matsu’s hand and up his chest. With another deep thrust the idol followed suit his warm seed shooting straight up into his ass and Nino, still trembling in his sex buzz, thought he had never felt anything so good. Matsu collapsed on top of him his lips and tongue moving over the skin he had been biting moments earlier.

When their breathing had slowed to a bearable pace the idol slowly pulled out, his seaman spilling out a little joining the stains that was already on the sheet. Nino felt the over whelming urge to hold him tightly and beg him not to go, but he pushed it away treating it as the same as all the other times they had shared a bed. He rolled onto his side taking deep breaths to force away the tears that were forming in his eyes. The idols phone rang shrilly with the ringtone he recognised as ‘the wife’ and Matsu reached to answer it while Nino went to hide himself in the bathroom washing the evidence of their affair away with the sweet strawberry body wash that he hoped he would never have to smell again. Wrapping a towel around his waist he went back out into the bedroom and silently started getting dressed. Shuffling into his jeans he saw Matsu’s wedding ring resting on the side where he had put it when he had come into the room.

“I’ll be back as soon as possible… I’m sorry… No I just didn’t realise…” Matsu was saying and slowly Nino slid the wedding ring on to his lover’s finger. Matsu gave a smile mouthing ‘thanks’ “Okay, we can talk then…”

“You forgot something?” Nino asked as he put his socks on and Jun finished the call

“Just a family dinner” The idol answered with a shrug “Next week?” Matsu asked as if it was a forgone conclusion, which until now it was, Nino couldn’t and wouldn’t say no to him.

“No… I have other plans…” Nino lied but he could easily meet up with his brother or something

“Who with? Are you cheating on me?” The idol asked sharply

“You’re the one that’s the cheater, Jun” Nino sighed wondering how he even had the nerve to say something like that “But no I’m not seeing anybody else… I just think we should quit this…”

“What? Why? Please Nino… I need this, I need you” The idol said in a pitiful voice, his chocolate brown eyes pleading with him. Nino knew he had to try and find a way of shielding himself against it and very slowly he pulled his hands away.

“I can’t we have to stop this, you’re married you have a kid and a baby…”

“It’s never bothered you before…” Matsu said looking like he had been physically hit in the face. Well it’s just about to get a lot worse, Nino thought

“Doesn’t it bother you when you’re kissing your kids after you’ve been sucking my dick? What about when you give me a rim job?”

“Nin-Kazu, is this your way of saying you or them?” The idol asked and Nino felt his heart clench he wanted to ask that but he couldn’t bear the thought of Matsu not picking him. He knew he would lose out.

“No this is my way of saying I’m tired of this, sneaking around with you every week and then going back to an empty apartment while you go back to your life…” He said with a sigh as he pulled on his boots, kissing his shoulder “Go back to your wife and kids Jun”

“Kazu…” The idol murmured grabbing his arm and Nino shrugged him off.

“No… We knew this… Whatever the hell this is was going to end…So why not end it now, while we sort of like each other?”

“Because I don’t want to…”

“But I do…I get a couple of good fucks one day a week… I want more than that… But not with you…”

“There is someone else isn’t there?” Matsu asked in a rough dangerously low voice and Nino sighed his brain working

“Yeah… Well kind of… There’s a new guy at work…” He answered walking to the door quickly praying that he would be out of the door before the first tears fell. There was no way he was going to cry in front of him now “Take care of yourself, Jun…” he said and left the room hoping to never see him, physically, again.

TBC

A/N: Hmm promise there is only three parts… It’s more a one shot really ^.^