You're not mine (part 3)

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Title: You’re not mine (MatsuMiya Version)

Author: krystalkatz

Rating: G/PG

Length: Mini Chaptered.

Genre: Au, Romance,

Pairings: Matsumoto Jun/Ninomiya Kazunari, Sakurai Sho/Ninomiya Kazunari,

Disclaimer: I only own the plot

“Jun…” He gasped his voice coming out as a strangled mess as he stared at the man he had just been watching on the T.V. In person the idol looked even worse than he had thought and Nino had to resist the urge to hug him and hold him tightly “What are you doing here? How do you even know where I live?”

“I know you don’t want to see me again… but I had nowhere else to go… Nowhere else I trusted… If you want you can slam the door in my face…Or punch me”

“Don’t be a dick, come in” Nino sighed, moving away from the door to allow him to come in “I’d never mess up your face…”

“Thanks” The disgraced idol muttered coming into the apartment and kicking off his heavy boots in the entryway. Nino took a deep breath to steady his nerves and went into the kitchen area, not know what to do, sick nerves filled his heart and he opened the fridge pulling out two bottles of beer, “Were you going out?” Matsu asked motioning to the coat Nino was wearing

“Too see my brother…”

“Not your boyfriend?”

“No… We… He just left” Nino said not failing to note the look of hurt in Matsu’s face. “So you were finally found out?” he sighed playing with his beer while flopping into the sofa. Matsu swallowed from his own bottle and nodded.

“Yes, I fucked someone I shouldn’t have…” He said “I knew that I shouldn’t but…I couldn’t stop myself…”

“What about your wife?”

“She kicked me out, she said that I wasn’t fit to be near the kids…” his voice trembled a little at that and Nino knew why, Matsu loved his son and daughter even if they hadn’t been what he really wanted. “I made such a mess of things, Nino…”

“I’ll say, we were fucking for over a year and we were never caught… But then you never had your hands down my pants in the foyer, what the fuck were you thinking?”

“I wasn’t… Those pictures they were taken the day after my anniversary… The day after I saw you and your boyfriend in tha restaurant…”

“Are you trying to say it’s my fault?”

“No… Nothing like that…I was just upset to see you on a date… Like we couldn’t be…I saw that guy and he looked a little like you and I couldn’t stop myself...”

Nino tried to stop himself reading too much into that statement, it would be way too easy to fool himself into thinking that the idol loved him to

“You should have been more careful…” He murmured before draining the rest of the bottle. “So why come here?”

“I had nowhere else… There’s press at nearly every hotel in the city, my agency has told me to lay low for a while…”

“If they see you here this will just prove everything that has been said… I already look like the guy you were fucking they’ll leap to conclusions…”

“You’re right, I shouldn’t have dragged you into this mess I’ll go…”

“Stop being an idiot…” Nino snapped he would have said more but his mobile rang with Satoshi’s ring tone and quickly he answered it “Hey Nii-chan…”

“Are you still coming?”

“Um… Yeah…I’ll be right there…” Nino answered getting back to his feet. He guessed that he should stay and talk to Matsu for longer but his mind was in such a mess right now that he needed to see the sweet sleepy face of his brother “I’m on my way…”He hung up the phone and turned to Matsu who was staring at him with an expectant look on his face “I’m going to go see my brother, you can stay here for bit if you want too…”

“Thanks, Kazu…” He said flashing his amazing smile and Nino had to force himself to look away and head to the door

“I shouldn’t be too long, there’s food in the fridge…” He said, thinking that that was only true because Sakurai had bought it for him insisting that he needed to eat. Why the fuck is my life such a mess? He asked himself walking to the door. Leaving without a second look at Matsu, he headed to his family home near the docks.

As he walked his heart and his mind was throwing at him dozen of questions that he should have asked Matsu, like ‘How did he know where I live?’ and ‘Why did he come to me?’ or his personal favourite ‘do you think he could love me?’ he was more than half way to Satoshi’s house when he turned and ran back to his apartment.

Matsu was sitting on the sofa his dead expression on his face as he watched the events unfolding again and again on the T.V. He didn’t even seem surprised when Nino almost fell into his own apartment and looked at him a little breathlessly. Nino didn’t know what to say so sat down beside him watching the news hearing the theories until slowly Matsu spoke up

“Kazu… I’m sorry about all of this… About that guy…” HE told him as once again the photo and video footage was shown of him and the idol. Nino had to admit that it was starting to piss him off. He reached down and picked up the remote switching the T.V off.

“Why are you apologising to me? You should be trying to make it up to your wife” He said turning away from him, trying to keep his voice level. He was surprised when Matsu reached out and hugged him from behind, kissing his neck.

“You never asked me to decide between you… Why?” the idol murmured against the back of his neck sending a ticklish sensation out over his skin.

“Because I knew I’d lose…” He whispered almost reluctantly.

“Wrong… You’ve always been first Kazu… ever since I met you…”

“I don’t want that… Your family…”

“I’ve already lost them… I lost them a year ago when I first met a waiter in dingy bar. He was pretending so hard not to know who I was…” Matsu gave a smile that almost reached his eyes, taking away some of the painful blank look they had “I lost them when I lost my heart to you… I love you so much Kazu…4 months ago I wanted to tell you that I loved you and to ask you to wait for me but you broke up with me…And you did it because of some other guy…Are you… Still with him?”

“I don’t know...” Nino said truthfully, and Matsu spun him around to look at him

“What do you mean ‘you don’t know?’” the idol asked and Nino shrugged, not really wanting to talk about this with Matsu.

“We had an argument earlier…” he mumbled, “He told me he loved me and I… I couldn’t say it back properly…”

“Why?”

“Because I didn’t realise until he left that I did love him too” Nino said slowly, watching the pain and understanding mixing in the idol’s beautiful eyes. He did love Sakurai but it was nowhere the same as how much he loved this man that was in front of him right now. He had realised how much he loved Matsu when he saw the news report, jealousy had knotted in his heart that Matsu could be that stupid with some other guy. Some guy that was just a imitation of him. “I do love him…”

“And do you love me?”

“He said I did…” Nino whispered trying to pull his own eyes away from Matsu’s but failing miserably, this is the face that had haunted his dreams, the first face he saw when he closed his eyes at night. He couldn’t pull away from it “Yes… I love you…”

“Then… Will you give me a chance… I know everything is so fucked up right now… But will you give me a chance to prove that I love you?”

“Jun…” Nino said, he wanted to believe him, he really did but ‘what if he was just saying this because he had been caught and had nowhere else to go?’ His brain asked while his heart was saying ‘Don’t you dare turn this down, what’s the harm in giving him a chance?’

“Kazu, please… let me try and prove it to you…”

“Okay, we can try…” He answered as his phone rang loudly with Satoshi’s ring tone. “Do you want to have dinner with me and my brother?”

“I… Yes” Matsu nodded with a smile “Thank-you”

 “We’re on our way” Nino told his brother holding Matsu’s hand tightly as they walked through the foyer of his apartment block. He hung up his phone as they reached the door and they were both surprised when they almost crashed into Sakurai.

A/N: dumdee dum… I’m sorry about the lack of multiple posts, and things but rl has been busy this week and it doesn’t seem like its going to be any better next week >.< I promise though I’ll keep plodding along with all my fics.. 
I'm not a fan of Matsu's new hair... To me he looks like leader and sakurai's love child >.<

I hope you enjoy ^.^